Deep Thoughts and Projects

How is everyone doing out there?  I’ll be 100% honest that I have been finding it hard to post inspirational posts or pictures.  What is it that I want to portray? What do others want to see? As far as business for me, there is nothing right now and that makes me antsy and scared. It is hard to swallow something that I have been slowly building and working hard on has come to a complete halt.  So, instead of dwelling on it (or trying not to anyway) I’ve been putting my energy into doing all the things I’ve had on my list for our own home, making my vision come to life.

        

                                                    

 

 

For the longest time, I have been wanting to repaint our home.  When we first moved in almost 7 years ago, I was huge pregnant with our youngest and I had to pick paint colors fast.  While what I chose was a VAST improvement to what was already there (think barf brown and in some areas, red sponge paint over the barf brown!) I was never 100% happy with it.  Our bedroom and kitchen/great room were painted in an ice blue color. The hallway and our playroom, I painted after about a year of living here. I went with the ever popular grey and a VERY loud accent wall of a tropical blue.  I had started repainting everything earlier this year, wanting to have a clean pallet. I thought that MAYBE I would finish the whole house by the end of the summer. While that timeline has changed, I am so happy that I have this focus right now.  Most days I do a few walls and I have almost completed our hallway. Another challenge and something that takes a lot of focus for me is my fear of heights. Some of the highest points in our house are about 15 feet high! I have yelled for Alex or my son Gavin many times to just at least hold the ladder.  I think I’m more afraid of just blacking out and falling more than anything! But, I’m doing it and the reward for sure is the “risk.” My satisfaction level is off the charts looking at what I have done so far and it propels me to keep going and I am glad I have this to work on, otherwise I may just sit here and become a blob!  LOL.

                                                                                    

Me holding on for dear life! (Note the old grey color!)

                                                 

These days soon will be in the past and I pray we can look back and see all the good that did come out of the bad.I pray for my sanity as well as every morning, to wake up and be the best mom I can be. I pray that my kids can look back at this and think “It wasn’t all that bad” and forget how their mom lost her temper so easily and the 10,000 movies they watched.

I know I’ll get back in the groove and I know this is not the end.  Here’s to taking one day at a time and one breath at a time. If you could do ONE thing everyday that takes your mind off everything that is a step in the right direction.  If I can do it, you can do it!

Until next time,

Marie